Dont respond to provocations either. This is indeed a common problem. We are already a stigmatized and vulnerable group. Ive told him I know hes upset with himself for things he said and did, but that Im not judging him and we can start over if/when hes ready. Do you erupt into anger easily? If this is whats happening to you, its important that you stop checking up on your ex and cease all contact immediately. Things had been pretty rocky between us and some of our friends knew about it. Its better to be temporarily lonely than be a chew toy. There are several actions that could trigger this block including submitting a certain word or phrase, a SQL command or malformed data. How Does BPD Splitting Destroy Relationships? I had to do homework with her kids. When I read stuff like that it makes me feel good because I didn't have to endure stuff like that. She totally destroyed my reputation. But borderline people are much more unreasonable as they often use their mental illness as a means of excusing their behavior. I'm scared" F: "Why do you think that?" Hi everyone Im totally new to this forum so just wanna say a big hello. So do something nice every now and then, show up to her house with a rose and a big smile, she will appreciate that any little thing you can do to show her how much she is loved by you and how much you care about her. And just like Zan, you dont have your credentials listed either. This website is using a security service to protect itself from online attacks. As part of the bootcamp, I had to go talk to random people and ask them for their phone number. It seems the only way to not be destroyed is to roll with the punches, kicks, etc.but never let them knock you down. GF: "Well, Thailand.. Once their partner does something that brings up their feelings, they usually see them in the worst possible way. Sex and all" F: "Oh ofcourse! Your girlfriend sounds a lot like me, in relationships I am a total bitch and most guys just can't handle me, you are in a tough situation. If he or she cant, your ex can ask you directly for help, or better yet, get professional help. Dont care about vengeance or what she thinks. They may have something more sensible to say, but that is not always true either, because psychiatry is not an exact science like somatic diseases. 2) Why was I attracted to someone with BPD? One of the primary characteristics of borderline personality disorder (BPD) is emotion dysregulation. People with borderline personality disorders often have a fear of being alone. But it also depends on how well you take care of yourself during the relationship. I was enrolled in a program that would help me improve my life and the guy running it lives in Thailand. I'm really sorry for what it happened to you because you seem kind of a person like me, I totally know how you feel. He was non violent and never broke anything. There is almost no possible way to get out of this without a sentence. Many people with BPD dont even know they have BPD. Weve created a quick list for you of symptoms that may indicate someone has BPD. I have 10% of friends I had at the beginning of the relationship. And kissed her, then kissed me. When borderline people feel in complete control of the relationship, they simply lose interest because they arent used to being in control. Your friends and your girlfriend started confirming their suspicion towards each other, fueling their believe that you would be cheating. It may help you to look at it that way. Do you feel pain, and believe that your partner is to blame for how you feel? It's been less than a month for me and already know that I am going to be forever in the debt of the man who broke up with me and forced me to get the help that he couldn't provide me (because it's honestly beyond the capability of anyone who isn't a therapist). I feel terrible,Ive sent an apologie message but no reply. Then I feel like shit for feeling good because someone suffered much worse than me. Thus, a terrible setup for the inevitable breakup. This is indeed a common problem. They may not realise that their feelings belong within them, so they think that their partner is responsible for hurting them and causing them to feel this way. You have a wide platform, and a lot of followers. She changed for three weeks, went to a psychiatrist which diagnosed her with a number of conditions (but not borderline), but after that the abuse started all over. The author uses no journals, research papers etc to prove their theories are based on fact. Ill never understand I know it was all fake but how? Write CSS OR LESS and hit save. your notes helped me a lot. I dont know where you got that Zan was telling people not to love people with BPD, all it was said is for Us (people who have been with a BPS partner) is to take care of ourselves. Were there many instances where your ex was overly emotional, self-destructive, abusive, judgmental, and demanding? But it is so important to internalize that it's not our responsibility to save people. Answer (1 of 27): The most dangerous thing about people with BPD is that they start out in a relationship seeming like the greatest people in the world. From chronic emptiness to uncontrollable anger, there is a lot of variation from symptom to symptom. But, in the minds of my friends the only reason a guy goes to Thailand by himself is of course to have sex. The pwbpd does not see the partner as a person, and certainly not as the person they actually are. Other toxic types of relationships also follow this unhealthy push-pull, up-and-down pattern as people in toxic relationships also tend to lack control over their actions. Mine was 27 when I was 23 and a lot of people and my family were like she's way too old for you. 116.204.182.155 F: "U should leave him, u deserve better." When you believe that your partner is causing you pain, the relationship becomes unbearable. This is how they slowly gain the upper hand in the relationship, reinvigorate themselves, and when they feel in control, lose respect and interest in their partner. Theyre used to fighting for love and recognition, so they feel that theyve gotten as much out of the relationship as they could. Borderline personality disorder is a chronic condition that may include mood instability, difficulty with interpersonal relationships, and high rates of self-injury and suicidal behavior. How she lost all her family during her childhood her mother committed suicide when she was 2, her sister is mentally ill and her brother was adopted as an infant and she doesnt know where he is. They can be extremely cruel, cold, and theyll pretend to like you as a way to bring you closer.closer to your doom! But sadly our honeymoon phase didn't last long. Borderline splitting can burn bridges in relationships when they act in ways to make their partner pay for it or punish them, being spiteful when they perceive they are being hurt or mistreated. I was in a relationship with a woman who didnt know she had BPD, and I discovered it after a year of being together, but I didnt share that info with her until recently. She also mentioned she loves sex and she cant stop fantasizing about me. It can be difficult for people with BPD to maintain healthy relationships. I hope youre doing a little better. I started to develop some sort of depression. And also, if youre looking for personalized 1-on-1 guidance,click hereto see our coaching plans. Please include what you were doing when this page came up and the Cloudflare Ray ID found at the bottom of this page. The consent submitted will only be used for data processing originating from this website. BPD splitting destroys relationships in this way. She said Im a psychopath, destroying everyone at my path and my career is followed by a pile of dead bodies. Nobody understood, why Im with and older women with two children. I sincerely hope you are right. She hid her medical appointments or data from me. While I understand that youre suffering and need to vent, my concern is that you are wasting your energy in public like this. After a year, bad shit started to happen. Say that you need at least a few months of no contact and that youll reach out when and if youre ready to talk again. If a friend had told you what she did and said she was sorry, what would you tell him; Is that different than if shes your wife; Loving someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) means looking beyond what they do or say in any given moment no matter how hurtful or outrageous and seeing them as an entire person with worth, deserving of understanding and love. When you think that youre treated well in your relationship you feel in love. You need new friends anyway, yours sucked. But those were all things I was unaware at that moment. If a person at any point in time during a relationship gets depressed/diagnosed with a mental illness, that person obviously couldnt predict what was going to happen. Whereas if your partner arrives late, he is seen as uncaring or rejecting. Exactly bro, some info is accurate but most of it is just making us out to be monsters. Your BPD ex might not like that youre pushing him or her away (might become afraid), but if you convey it nicely, he or she might see that youre sincere and intend no harm. She had already destroyed our entire family by this point, and she never even got the treatment! This is super helpful. GF: "Yeah you're right. It hard to let go of that feeling, unless they do something reckless to unleash the anger, causing the borderline splitting to sabotage relationships. The background might be different, but the plot is the same. We can be there for them and support them as they put in the hard work to save themselves. How can they be so cruel? She's that kind of person that gets marks on the skin really easily, so she proceeds to call the police. Im not condoning my ex-wifes behavior and believe people need to be held accountable for their actions. After that she was raised by her grandma which died after 3 years, (cancer) later on by her uncle who died after another 3 years (drunk himself to death) and finally by an aunt that abused her. I push and push and push all the people in my life away until they feel like they have no other choice but to step back from me! Therefore, there is nothing you can do to fix it. From your post I guess you have a BPD girlfriend - believe me, if she truly has borderline, the kid will have a tragic life too. When their partner stirs up underlying feelings, their partner is blamed for how they feel, becoming all bad. How did we not think of that? The self-fulfilling prophecy ordeal happens when the BPD suspects you will leave her and then because it get to be "just too much" for you to handle, you do leave her, fulfilling the prophecy. It's so easy to use age against you, even though they often act less mature. And I did, because of my son. Re: Girlfriend has BPD and its destroying me. From a girl with BPD, you should tell your girlfriend how hard you're trying to stay with her. first off, borderlines are mostly hyperaware of everything they think, ffeel, and do. She woke me up during night, she woke me up at the morning, she started doing it when I was making breakfast or washing myself. Nevertheless, it still hurts that I essentially lost all of my friends. You don't really want to die - you just want the pain to stop, and think ending it all might make the pain stop. Even when you fell in love and stayed with him or her. Unfortunately, it's just the beginning. Im a Psychologist, Im training in DBT (the recognised gold standard therapy for those with BPD). Thank you Zan. The relationship was still shit, but there where good moments. To them, relationships are battles of power. Wes spoken about moving in together and spending the holidays together. Want to stay up to date with the latest on mental health? Those diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) use the defense mechanism splitting, which causes them to feel extremes of either good or bad. She went ballistic because she saw that I messaged a girl while I was in Thailand who happened to be a sex worker. They crave intimacy and affection and tend to experience waves of separation anxiety and a fear of losing control. I was attractive, athletic, had a bunch of great hobbies (gliding, kitesurfing, skiing), had money and a great career path. I was raised differently. When they break up, they often forget the positive things about their partner, until the partner has gone. She sounds pretty evil. But, it's still hard getting over the good times that I did have with them. I wouldn't solely blame this on your BPD girlfriend. The feelings get pushed down, out of ones awareness because they are painful. I recommend pay attention to the patterns. (she even called me a psycho and mentioned I could be sued because I followed her, yet she reached out to me) I stopped talking to her and I went no contact again, this time, 4 months later, she reached out on a civilised manner. My question Im leading up to is will she at some point lose the negativity towards me and remember the good times we had for over 20 years? This girl just so happened to message me asking when I'd be going out and I decided to message back just to practice talking to people. I packed my things, took my son and moved to my parents. For a person with BPD to get well and stay well, he or she has to grow rationally and emotionallyand strive hard not to fall back into an old routine. I've always stumbled upon people, that would not take advantage of it. 136.243.94.45 We are social creatures; healthy relationships are vital to healthy lives. She was cheating on me for over a year, with a number of guys (which I got to know just know). "r/ BPD Loved Ones" is a support forum and safe space for people to discuss the challenges and abuse they have endured at the hands of someone who has Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). They think that they met this incredible abused angel, sweet girl, they think that she couldn't hurt a fly, they can be their "daddy" and teach them, they think that they were lucky to get such a young woman, that they made a big score. Hanging Out With An Ex While In A Relationship. Fuck. A borderline personality disorder is one of a group of conditions called emotionally unstable personality disorders. BPD splitting ruins relationships since the person can misconstrue the behaviours of others when their feelings are brought up in the relationship. After this, she started splitting hard. It seems to me everything that meant a lot to me was fake and surreal. It can be draining to deal with the ups and downs. I had a lot of friends female too. RodMan, it's like you wrote my story for me; down to the timeline. Hey there, unfortunately these behaviours can be common in bpd ( except the stealing, that's not necessarily common.I don't know what triggered that).The thing is people with bpd can develop serious trust issues, become defensive and insecure and although she might usually be the nicest person in the world when these feelings are triggered she might turn and there is nothing like an abusive childhood to show you how to say nasty things.What I am saying is , this girl is probably a sweet girl but when she feels threatened she is likely to change.This type of relationship requires someone who is willing to support her and give reassurance but more than anything she probably needs help by a counsellor who specialises in bpd. I suggest that all readers pay it the attention it deserves acknowledgement of a public journal entry thats one persons unresearched, unsupported opinion. Remember you cant reason with a unreasonable person. She took away my son and does she did not let me see him. We all react in different ways, some people gamble or exercise or tidy the house excessively to cope, some people have emotional instability like BPD - you can't blame yourself for everything. Back then, I was a stupid, trustworthy, horny 24-year old. My overnight ghosting occurred after I (by mistake) almost caused her and her husband to break up and she split me black for almost a year. "Vent", as you guys call it. Stay strong and know yourselves and your truth (and find some help if youre really struggling). She was angry because of all my previous relationships and now she had knowledge about them. Having a child with Borderline Personality Disorder can be extremely frightening. Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a mental health disorder characterized by many symptoms, including chronic challenges with maintaining healthy interpersonal relationships, feelings of low self-worth, impulsivity, and volatile moods. How Do You Know When Your Relationship Is Really Over? Being late triggers past wounds of feeling unwanted, which becomes so overwhelming that they need to be projected outside of themselves. There are two ways to answer that question. Every time I get too close to someone, I become vulnerable, and my anxious attachment style bleeds out". Often, whatever they say can be taken the wrong way, so they either give up or defend. You can generally plot out a borderline personality disorder relationship cycle into six stages of progression. A BPD relationship cycle often consists of some emotional highs and lows that may leave you confused and frustrated. That she was stressed and had to have a break. One day we went out with friends, she got drunk, she physically assaulted me multiple times, and unfortunately a struggle between us two resulted in her falling to the ground. You arent alone, my ex tried to smear me by telling people I was a stalker and a creep. It should be considered a mental illness that affects around 1.5% of people in the United States, 75% of which are women. Unfortunately, I haven't had the strength to not reach out every 3 or 4 weeks during those 4 months - essentially, to let her know "it's okay", "I understand/support you", "hope you're feeling well today", blah-blah-blah. Relationships fall apart as splitting causes the borderline to say things in the heat of the moment and regret saying them afterward. Your IP: You can email the site owner to let them know you were blocked. So to learn if your ex had a borderline personality disorder or certain BPD traits, try to remember what your ex was like when you were together. 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